Nothing is a waste

People don’t believe me when I tell them my story.

I can’t believe it either.

I didn’t know I could be this happy and that life would get this good.

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I, like many others, have had deep struggles with mental health in my life.

Beginning age 9, I was addicted to self-harm and cutting.
I attempted suicide twice before I was 15.
I was sexualized at a very young age, and became hooked on obtaining the male gaze of emotionally and verbally abusive men.

I had no self esteem.
I reached a crisis point when I was 20.

I quit my job out of shame, experienced daily panic attacks, and was unable to recognize my own body in front of my eyes.

Life looked like a simulation, I thought my dog was made of paper, people’s faces all looked the same and I feared I had lost my mind forever.

I was diagnosed with Acute Stress Disorder. Essentially, my amygdala was so overcome with fear and trauma that it was withdrawing completely: hence my symptoms.

With therapy and medication, I was able to regain my sense of self and normalcy relatively quickly and I am thankful that I had the resources and support to recover, which many do not have.

I am incredibly thankful for my struggles because I am able to relate to the heights and depths of human emotions.

It’s made me a better nurse, a better human, and a better coach.
I am a testimony to the mind battles that can be overcome.
I have learned to ground myself in the present moment.
I am able to harness my mind-body connection for healing.

Most importantly, I have learned (and am forever learning) how to radically love myself.

I shower myself with love and positive self talk. I encourage myself, forgive myself, and push myself forward.
I push myself to overcome limiting beliefs, and I hold myself radically accountable for my own happiness and joy.

And best of all, now I get to harness these experiences with my coaching clients.

I shower them with positivity, love, hope and understanding.

I listen deeply, I never judge, and I call forward their highest self.

I am always supportive, and I get to see them transform and blossom.

Nothing is waste!